]] pieces of me, put together.

Sunday, October 31, 2004

[catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
never let it fade away.]

i feel lost. very lost.
i have many questions.
many wishes...
there are so many things to do.
and i do not know how to go about it.
yar yar. PLAN PLAN PLAN.
i want to plan. but i dunno how to.
i have no idea whats going to happen!
everybody that wants to go out.
lets please select a day.
aye, wait. maybe not yet.
i need to see when i have no training first.
going to buy my confirmation clothes.
ARGH, i'm just very mixed up.
I WANT THIS BIG BIG CALENDAR!
wishes or not. XD
i shall make it a goal.
my goal.
yes that is. today was spent rather well.
i did some housework.
had a math tuition.
learnt differentiation.
it was okay, it always is. when i learn it.
in 3 weeks time, i'll forget everything.
btw, i wanna add something here.
YOU ARE VERY IRRITATING!
I'M GOING TO EXPLODE AT YOU ONE DAY.
YOU WAIT AND SEE.
I CAN'T STAND YOUR FACE.
I HATE YOUR VOICE.
PLUS, ALL THAT FUNNY SOUNDS YOU MAKE.
IT'S EVEN WORST.
YOUR STINKY BOASTFUL ATTITUDE SUCKS TO THE CORE.
HOPE YOU GET IT.
I REALLY HOPE YOU READ THIS!
AND I DO NOT WISH TO BE SITTING NEXT TO YOU.
YOU'RE IRRITATING.
A PEST. MOST OF ALL, A MAJOR DISTRACTION.
I HATE YOUR SCHOOL TOO BTW.

i shant get myself all creased up cos of you!
you cheesed me up.
sucker.
mommy picked me up after tuition.
went to tp central to eat dinner.
at Macs. haha. it was quite nice.
mom went to Arithalia to buy some new clothes
added up to almost 200 bucks.
she tried on quite a few.
she bought me a halter!
yay. got new clothes.
i forgot to blog abt friday afternoon.
went out with Feline , Nat n Eug.
haha, nice time.
bought a blue spag top from Espirt.
so cool. it was on sale. yeahss. we ate a lot.
scared the hell outta feline.
=D
anyway, going out tmr.
cya people. gtg now.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 1:08 PM!

Saturday, October 30, 2004

today was boring.
like every other saturdays!
i went out with Feline in the morning.
took abt an hour to change and get ready
haha. yes, my mom just keeps complaining.
nag nag nag.
showed her my report book.
more nagging. yar yar.
it's an improvement anyway?!
oh wells, Feline and i lunched at Thai Express.
AGAIN.
the previous time was with Trish and Nat.
yes, just before some shit exam.
going there reminds me of studying.
oh wells, anyway. ate and ate.
yar, and went to Heeren.
accomodated feline.
she wanted to que for the singapore idols.
did for boon a favour.
got her tix.
yarda, not that interested in those.
went for cath class at 2.
it was okay, there'll be an ice cream treat next week.
i'm rather excited.
it'll be at Swensens.
one day i'm suppose to go back to school.
haha. yar. how i wish rgym training was in school instead of CCAB.
pros to that:-
no long distance running.
no sprinting.
no running basically.
no self admiring in front of the mirror.
that means, no doing posture stuff.
and less throwings.
plus, it's more convinient.
and easier for me to hand in my hwk.
(killing two birds with one stone?)
yar. that's it.

anyway, feline bought me a wallet.
so much for queing with her.
=D
ate at Macs after cath with nicole.
went back to church.
sang for choir.
was alright. had to sing lover of us all.
with the descant parts.
haha. yup. mass was fine too.
wanna shout out.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE.
it's tmr btw.
in 6 mins. passed her her pressie today.
went shopping after mass.
taka.
was crowded.

anyway, wanna sleep now! cya. tc!
already 12. haha. bye.

leighanne; haha. golly gosh. i'm not a math freak. sounds so nerdy. LOLS. still thinking abt it.
fiona; thankew gurl! yar, i'm already missing it. actually dunno wad so great abt it. but i'm missing it already! haha. love ya. and take care too!

toh; yup theres lots to do. and i'm also glad to have picked u out. it's like finding a jewel in the depths of the ocean. i'm very happy that you're moving up too. can't imagine whats it's like w/o u! haha. yup, nice year we had. and welcome. thanks for urs too. +D loveya!

nat; yeas gurl. thanks nat. =D ilu lots. =D

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 11:52 PM!

Friday, October 29, 2004

i feel something missing in my life.
i feel empty, this sense of emptyness will not go away
when i trip and fall, you pick me up.
when i m sad you make me smile.
when i give up, you encourage me.
no one is ever going to take your place.
because i've reserved it in my heart.
specially for you.
i will really miss you.

three/eights moving up next year. as one.
except for someone.
i'm really dissapointed.
have failed as a classmate. she was left out.
i didn't realise.
now she's transfering out.
there's really no need for that.
but her decision is her choice.
i have no say.
the class didn't gave her enough support.
i'm really sorry.
it just puts me down to think about this.
actually ur presense doesnt matter to me,
but i do not know why i feel this way.
it's just part of three/eight
it's like a beautiful bird.
with 35 (36 originally) feathers.
all with its own special colour.
now that one feather is plucked out.
it does not look as nice as it is originally was.
and it will not.
nevertheless, we are still going to depend on the 34 colours to shine.
and beat the rest.
+D

i didn't like the atmosphere.
for one thing, the setting was bad.
it was raining.
cold, dark, gloomy.
i really did not need such a weather.
i needed something more lively.
we were greeted by miss tan early morning.
it sucked.
she was boring yet able to drive her point across
i got her message
she didnt need to remind us and wake us up.
i already know all that.
i had enough of talks.
whats the use of talking? planning. etc?
when i do not put anything into action.
i better answer my own question soon.
before it is too late again.
anyway, went for a double illegal recess.
ate quite little. was not feeling good today.
=D felt like sleeping all the way.
we played in class.
laughed a bit.
it was boring.

this year has been a wonderful year.
it's time to close this chapter of our lives
and get ready to open the next one.
whatever teachers we will have next year.
i think we should make the best out of it.
all these things are life long skills i've picked up from miss shanthi.
i feel determined.
i want to do well in my biology.
i know i can do it man.
and i definitely can push my math further.
There are a lot of things to plan.
and also carry out.
there was a singa award crap thing today!
congrats Nat.
i wanted her to win the goal award.
but i love her anyway. =D she rocks.

at about 1.30. miss shanthi came into class to give us a final talk.
a final nag.
a final reminder.
the last bit of our journey with her.
i'm now deciding whether i should drop a math?!
everyone is telling me to.
if i do. i'm a loser, a big loser.
i can't handle a problem.
and what's my solution? let go of it.
yes, but on the other hand. you'll think it's ridiculous to be wasting time on a subject that i definitely know i will fail.
okay, you see the irony of the situation?
oh man. i don't want to be a loser.
i do not want to escape from this.
i m breaking a promise i made to myself in the beginning of the year
that no matter what happens, i'm going to perservere.
and do my best. (applicable to a math) and no matter what.
i cannot drop it because i give up.
my body is giving up. my soul isn't.
i'm confused.
its the second time i'm proving myself wrong.
i failed again.
and now, i'm going to make another promise with someone.
dunno who.
and it is to get my A1 for E MATH.
i'm too complacent. thats it.
there's no use talking about all these now.
so well, i think i should just start off with some planning.
perhaps for the first week of hols.

this is what i have in mind:
-party (bbq) at my house + swim
-shopping (duh) with many people
-clubbing at raffels town club
-revision
-studying
-completion of homework
-holiday
-rhythmic gym
-exercise
-pack up room
-clean up house
-confirmation
-choir practices
-caroling
-holiday to somewhere?! (to be confirmed)

yes, now i have to fit it all these into my calenda.
btw, to all my rhythmic gym B divs.
there'll be training on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday
and the following week. will confirm.
please set aside at least 4 days in a week for rgym.
it'll be in the morning at 9.15 until late afternoon.
please wear your tights, and your tight top.
for the B divs, please wear your navy green crossback and black tights...
over it, please wear your rhythmic gym t-shirt and school shorts because we might me running.
please bring along your track shoes as well.
Love ya.

oh yeas, see how this goes? 4 days. taken up.
great stuff.

this year is sortof ended in a sense.
i'm looking forward to Christmas.
i really miss this year.
~the classroom
~the smell of my dear friends.
leighanne, feline, toh, mon, fiona, trish, claire, nicole, dina, stef, stef, januari, ongy, amy, denise, felicia, angelina!
~the teachers
~the insects
~the cold air
anyway, had fun sitting with jeannine for the first 1/2 of the year.
she funny lil sweet thing.
and then jen! crappy piece of sweet.
and leighanne, tablemater.
and angie... hardworking worker.
fun fun fun stuff.
ahha, like i'm not going to enjoy that next year...
but it won't be the same.
it will be different in a way or another.

anyway, continuing with todays happenings.
miss shanthi talked for a lil bit.
did a survey thing.
and got back our report books.
did bad, my position in class was better than mid years.
i failed my a math.
the rest are Bs and Cs.
lit sucks as well.
okay, and yea. PFT was nice.
weight is still under the same category
remarks, basically said that i've made a conscious effort to improve.
yar, when my L1R5 is still the same
anyway, and she said that not to my full potential
yar yar yar, all the teachers will tell all the students the same thing.
for the next time round
i'll make sure it's the other way round.
that i'll tell the teachers instead that i've done my best.

okay, this has been a long post.
a closure.
though we are not parting
but yup. i want to end this well
XD

looking forward to many things.
=D love you everyone.

tohtoh; yup i did. i think it's nicer to read. XD haha. love you gurl and thanks for the note. it's really very sweet.

nat; yes babe. thanks dear! you too alright?

fiona; yup. did not really "relay" the message to the whole class. just did to as many people as i could. pass it around yea? yup. love ya too!

jerome lah; haha. yes LAH. funny.

peter; hi. okay?

cass; hey babe. aww. not going for choir again. leave me to sing the descant parts myself huh? hpmh. haha! love ya dear. ahah. and yes, i was shocked when i saw his name on my phone. can't wait to see you too! miss ya loads.

leighanne; yup!!! we will gurl. haha! yup, one day! yay. =D thank you for everything dearie. and we'll bring lotsa money out to spend. HAHA! MR TANG. =D love you loads. XD tc.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 11:42 PM!

Thursday, October 28, 2004

okay, today we had a retreat.
if you refer to the previous post.
i take it all back.
yes, i'm totally a failure as a daughter lah okay?
i'm sorry.

anyway, today was really. what word shall i use? tranquil.
oh whatever knot.
had fun.

theree was an announcement made over the PA system
from my class.
yes, Mr tang smsed me.

"hi. mr tang here. Could you relay a msg for me to the class. Thanks for the thank you msg (though the gals were caught). It was a pleasure to have thought *supposed to be taught* your class and i wish the lcass all the best for next year. Work hard and strive to achieve the best you can. Take care and God Bless"

okay, so you all get it? =D
yup. haha! anyway, thinking of joining a second CCA. guess i cant comit. still thinking abt it. XD

aha... thats all for now. cya! bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 2:49 PM!

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

today was fine i'd say.
the main focus in todays post will be - my holidays.
the end year one.
i do not wish to delay any plans,
because currently, i have no idea which day i m doing what.
and so many people are asking to go out.
and i'm promising so many, so guess we'll all fix the dates soon!
ALRIGHT.
i've calculated.
roughly 9 weeks of holidays.
i shall take out one week - Christmas.
that week i shall be totally free!
so if i take into account the 8 weeks, i shall put aside a total of 28 days to go through the sec three work, complete or rewrite notes etc.
and another 8 days to read up on next years work.
yup, i shall see how much i achieve.
i feel very determined now. the zeal to want this badly is here. i can feel it.
thats a good sign.
hope that feeling stays and not surfaces and then vanish.
this always happen.
i have to psycho myself into this, so what does that say?
i'm telling you this, it'll be gone! gone gone gone. soon.
just wait and see.
time has to be kept aside for rhythmic gym as well.
oh mans, lifes so stressful!
haha.
OH PLUS CHOIR! ohmygosh. *faints
i also have no idea where around singapore we're going to sing.
and yea, that means there'll be practices.
many practices. every night?! argh.
i've got no life.

anyway, today miss shanthi came in to class.
voted for prefects.
voted for those i know. =D
after that Mr Teh came in and gave out some forms.
then miss shanthi gave out the book list.
we have really little things to buy. hooorayy!
after a while, we headed down to the hall... waited there and assembled.
i'd like to emphasize. WAITED THERE! for damn long.
we were so bored they ended up letting us watch this real lame clip.
think its from the readers digest. after attendance taking at about 8.30?
we started.
left only at abt 9.
walked there and yup. the movie showed at 10.
mon, stef, claire, trish, me, and leighanne sat towards the back.
we bought lots of food. and the nach trish and i shared was like gone even b4 the movie started.
we went out to get hotdogs.
the movie was kinda nice. really exciting. screamt a lil when there was a sudden boom.
haha, after the movie.
it was drizzling a little, so the teachers there decided that since so few of us had umbrellas, we take a bus back. But, stubborn as usual.
with miss shanthi as the head, we walked back.
so the majority of them took the bus, whilst the rest ran/walked back.
more of running.
leighanne and i started running.
haha, we looked like some bunch of crazy monkeys.
nvm abt tt, it was fun anyway.
we reached school even before the people taking the bus.
then we were let to do anything we want.
i headed for the canteen.
ate and ate and ate.
the food wasnt really that fantastic... but i was hungry so yea.
the parents there seriously put in quite a bit.
there was quite a variety.
chicken wings, curry with rice/bread, fishballs, deserts, beehoon etc.
went back to class... and played a game of taiti.
or how do you spell iT?
and then played blufff.
goshh, keep loosing one. i'm such a bad liar that is.
but yea, i think i lied the most.
XD

haha, anyway, that was today.
had some fun.
it's been quite a while.
going to bathe soon.
need to sort out things.
have tuition tomorrow.
somebody shoot me. there are lots of tuition homework i havent done.
ArGH. life is no good like that.

take care ya all.
going to the gym soon. XD
or maybe a swim?!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 5:09 PM!

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

yup, rugby interclass competetion was today.
it was indeed a fierce one.
the looks on peoples faces said it all.
3/8 was quite high spirited in the beginning.
but we lasted throughout.
well done ruggers, you all did a great job.
lets celebrate our victory.
+D
was quite tired, so guess shall put off.
all the misunderstandings with the other classes,
shall all be resolved.
it was just a game.
and yup. well done once again.
BTW, WE LOST ONE GAME, DRAWED ALL THE OTHER GAMES, AND WON 2 GAMES.
DO WE ROCK OR WHAT?!
maybe if our players were not so injured we could have done better.
doesnt really matter cos we did well.
really proud.
XD

ilu gurls a lot. =D bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 10:11 PM!

Monday, October 25, 2004

oh gosh!
the tagboards from tagboard.com are not working
sorry for not tagging those of you using it.
will do it later!
i'm really sleepy now! my eyes are like closing. so i guess this post will be short and sweet.

a summary of today;
miss shanthi came in first thing in the morning.
talked to us about our bad results.
and then spoke to those she needed to personally.
to all those retaining, i'm going to write up a song for you.
check out the other blog with the links on.
=D its all going to be there.
REALLY LOVE YOU. I'M SAD TOO!

anyway, after that, used the computer!!! with tricia, and vicky.
wasted some time.
it was fun though... =D then we watched the rest played rugby.
yee. so rough! but 3/8 rocks still.
suppose to be in charge of cheers.
not doing anything.
haha

after school... went to look for mrs chiam.
planning for our chalet.
and deciding training days.
so dear juniors. sorry, the horror movie is on again!
you all shall go down the cheese by now! whoo hoo!
haha.

went to Tanglin Mall.
ate lunch. walked towards orchard.
bought the soft point shoes from the dance shop.
went shopping.
and came home with pamela.
i saw randall.

anyway, was really tired.
pam and i walked a pretty long distant!
that should be abt it all.

i'll really miss you all!
miss shanthi is not going to let this happen!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 6:53 PM!

Sunday, October 24, 2004

re[pl.i.e*S

jerome~ lol, yes! my messages are going boncus. haha. wonder how much it'll add up to.
nicole~ i edited it! =D love ya! haha. so cool! we got the same marks!
leighanne~ dearie. please don't do this!!! i don't want you to retain either!
tohtoh~ welcome gurl. i luv ya. don't retain too!
cass~ yes, sang like 5 songs with descant parts! haha!

[01] First name: Melissa
[02] Middle name: Celestine
[03] Last name: Koh
[04] Nickname: mel, melsa, melly, melicious, mellyness, merli, mello, ellomello, melkoh
[05] Gender: woman
[06] Age: 15
[07] Birthday: 16th May.
[08] Height: look up at me
[09] Hair color: look!
[10] Eye color: same as hair.
[11] Race: 100 m.
[12] Do you wear glasses or contacts: glasses.
[13] Do you have braces: i want it please
[14] Is your hair long or short: short.
[15] Where were you born: Mt E.
[16] Current location: my room; Singapore; oleander towers
[17] Zodiac sign: Taurus
[18] How many languages do u know: many.
[19] Nationality: singaporean
[20] Bad habits: i'm perfect
[21] Piercings you have: ears
[22] Piercings you want: thats enough!
[23] Tattoos you have: none.
[24] Tattoos you want: glittery stars.
[25] Today's date: 24th Oct
[26] The time: 10.47 PM (wth am i doing here?!)
[27] Ready formore questions?: bring it on.

---SCHOOL LIFE---
[43] Are you still in school : i'm at home
[44] Did you drop out: what should i say?
[45] Currently in: CHIJ tp
[46] Favorite grade: A1s!
[47] Least fav grade: C6
[48] Favorite teachers: teachers? i dunno?
[49] Least favteacher/lecturer: i'm nice.
[50] Favorite subjects: math and literature
[51] Least fav subject: chinese.
[52] Do you buy lunch or bring it: none
[53] Play any sports on the school's team?: sports?
[54] Do you do any co-curricular activitives: rhythmic gym!
[55] Are you popular: do you know me?
[56] Favourite dance: serenade piece and concerto de garm.
[57] Least fav dance: erm, the christmas one?
[58] Favorite memories: i dunno?
[59] Least fav memories: ditto
[60] Most humiliating moment: -_- would i want to humiliate myself again?

FAVOURITES--
[61] Favourite number: 3, 7 and 12?
[62] Clothing brand: lots.
[63] Shoes: none in particular.
[64] Phrases: none.
[65] TV shows: ditto
[66] Sports: lots.
[69] Movie: refer to my web
[70] Magazine: ditto
[71] Actor: none
[72] Actress: ditto
[73] Candy: none
[74] Gum: dont favour any.
[75] Scent: seabreeze.
[76] Choc bar: MnS ones.
[75] Ice cream flavour: strawberry, vanilla.
[78] Colors: pink.
[79] Seasons: summer
[80] Holidays: end of year ones
[81] Bands: nah!
[82] Singers: none in particular
[83] Group: ditto
[84] Rappers: noise.
[85] Types of music: depends
[86] Things in your room: norms.
[87] Place to be: no idea.
[88] Radio station: 987
[89] TV channel: discovery
[90] Food: what does a pig eat?
[91] Overall food: pig type
[92] Store: dunno.
[94] Fast food: nope
[95] Restaurant: cafe cartel?
[96] Shape: star.
[97] Songs: so many!
[98] Musical intrument: drums, piano.
[99] Person you love most: please take out the word most.
[100] What do you wanna say most now: i love you everyone.

PRIMARY SCH TIMES

1.[sChOoL] ` - chij primary toa payoh

2.[cLass] `-
pri one hibiscus
pri two hibiscus
pri three lily
pri four lily
pri five lily
pri six lily

3.[FaV YeAr] `- primary 3 and primary 2?

4.[who do u moz remember who sit beside u in class] anne marie tan.

5.[7 girls u mix with during p1-p6] any 7? okay, feline, adeline, ken li, nicole tan, anne marie, nicole siew, gillain choo

6.[7 boys u mix with during p1- p6] none.

7.[wad is ur eca] ballet and civics club

8.[whose the most quiet] er, keisha??? haha.

9.[class clown] gillian and siew.

10.[smartest] `anne marie

11.[most hardworking] me. just that i'm stupid.

12.[most sweetest] me! haha, Gillian?

13.[most innocent] haha, er? i don't know?

14.[always get into trouble] Isabella, Vanessa Koh!

15.[most funny] Tan Su Hui! Celest. haha!

16.[best moment in class] i dunno? lots.

17.[what you do during recess] eat! the food then rox!

18.[who do you still keep contact often] most of them i guess. feline? nicole?

19[what you always do during class] paying attention.

20.[who always laugh in class] Regina, me and celine!

21[most naughty thing you ever did] erm, nothing. i was a prefect!

22.[no of times you went back to pri sch after you grad] lots. got rgym training there!

23.[did you cry during p6 grad day] haha yar.

24. [fav hangout with friends]

25.[worst year] primary 5?

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 10:40 PM!

heyya.
today was like every other day.
woke up and got dressed.
left the house and met feline,
who was late!
yes late.
i thought i was always late.
she was later.
yes she was.

anyway, had lots of fun.
shopped quite a bit.
i refrained myself from spending any money and i succeeded!
applaud for me please.
anyway, i obviously had to spend on lunch.
ate so much
shall give an account of the food that went into my mouth!
ate erm, strawberry milkshake. (large size)
then went to Long Johns.
ate combo 1.
plus halve a piece of fish from feline.
PLUS, ice cream again.
REGULAR SIZE. it was the straeberry blizzard.
also from orange julius.
meanwhile, we just walked around.
had the intention of taking neos.
but did not in the end.
thanks to the long que.

left for tuition.
oh and yar, feline and i saw this cute guy at Long John.
okay, i didnt find him cute.
Feline did.
haha, drool drool drool. whatever.
saw my friend. Beethoven.
he's still as cute as usual.
and the yellow banana.
haha, forgot his name.

anyway, i tried on lots of clothes.
din buy anything.
went for tuition.
a math.
so boring! just practiced vectors.
quite okay, think i need to be more hardworking.
slacking too much.
i'm saying that for next year.
i deserve to slack now!
ahaha.
anyway, coming up this week.
monday- shopping with pamela. going to get ballet stuff at tanling mall
tuesday-mommys taking leave. doubt i can go out with my friends. X(
wednesday-not sure; maybe i'll stay home and complete my hwk!
Thursday-chinese tuition
Friday-dunno? shopping!?

after tuition.
went to united square!
had dinner there, bought a black top!

theres school tomorrow.
to all those thinking that they're going to retain-
i love you.
i really do.
you're physically out.
but memories do stay.
and it'll last forever.
without you, theres no three eight.
i love you.
yes i do.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 10:15 PM!

Saturday, October 23, 2004

HEY THERE.
today was really pack.
i met up with feline in the afternoon because i decided to accompany mommy, aunty sri, boy and mei to Tiong bahru market.
ate my breakfast there.
i walked down the long isle of stuffed still air and survived.
while i think my mother was engaging herself in the ah ma clothes and materials.
yewl. anyway, when we walked back to the carpark,
she told me that the clothes she was looking at were for my grandmother not her.
gosh, i was so relieved man!

i came home and went for a swim.
my brother is such an idoit man.
he took so long to get adjusted to the water.
that's so lame.
anyway, came up after a short while because i had to go for cath class.

had cath class, then choir.
during cath class, just did some interaction.
and then left and went to Macs. ate and talked a bit.
feline left!
and nic and i went for choir!!!!!!!!!
=D
sanng sang sang. going to get a sore throat soon.
reached my notes.
loved the songs.
screwed some up.
did my best.
oh wells, that should be abt it.
think we did well overall.
i dunno? haha.

alright. going to sleep now!
cya all' bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 11:33 PM!

Friday, October 22, 2004

the biggest idoit of all - me.

oh yes, this really happened today.
geog paper. we were checking them. i was desperate for marks,
i went up to the teacher and asked for some more marks for this question.
cos one part she like seemed to ignore.
and i thought thru what i wanted to say before giving up.
that this point is relevant etc.
and yes,
"can i get more marks for this??? it is correct."
*scans through, and says,
"okay..." *gets red pen out, going to add more marks.
"you already have the six full marks! what do you want? 7 upon 6?"
me: "ooops! haha."
*continues looking for more mistakes or possible faults, and doesnt find any*

okay. haha, what an idoit i m.
anyways, i went to the play ground today.
so bored.
sat the swing... and like swinged myself for a damn long time.
swung all my dissapointments away.
i'm a free girl now.

looking forward badly to the holidays!
and yes, next year.
christmas.
omg. i'm excited! haha. my confirmation camps coming up soon!
+D haha. exciting thing this is.
tmr going shopping.
for a lil while. 1 hour? haha
nuts. =D cath class tmr. we shall see what jokes the guys crack this time. haha!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 8:20 PM!

well, truthfully, i'm rather "okay", or satisfied with my results.
but not myself. you get what i mean right?
i m really angry. at my mother. bitch!
what post mortem am i supposed to do?! i can't stand this.
she's making me go through again and try to improve from it.
not that i'm not wanting to improve and not know what to do.
like try and learn from my mistakes, or rather identify them etc.
i actually am pissed and not happy with what i got, its my life.
and i do not need her to come into the picture and instruct me. and tell me what to do, as if i do not know.
i'd say that i'd be an idoit if i think i did well for the exams.
whatever. todays papers were rather sucky.
i'm pleased anyhow. but i thought i could do better.
ie; i was really shocked at my geog marks. i really thought of getting my A! my ONLY A! for SS/Geog. and yes, before the papers were actually handed out. she said this...
"three one- 10 failures out of abt 40 odd people.
three two-19 passes also out of abt 40 people.
three four- 2 passes out of 26 people (specifically from DS)
three nine- 1 person passed! out of about 20 people.
three eight- 7 people passed out of also abt 20 people!"

okay, my heart sank. right to the bottom. i could visualise my head rolling on the floor!
my hands turned cold and my entire being froze.
there goes my A1. and i really did not want to fail this because i wanted to maintain my A1 for SS! yes, indeed i did PASS. i think Katrina got the highest, she managed a freaking 30 out of 50!
and yup, i did pass, got 26. suppose i'm the 3rd or 4th person. because by counting down.
like 7th person, 6th person, 5 th person and all. yar. about 4 people got lower than me. so should be around there la. =D still very dissapointed though. was really sad, my SS is like so good, and this like shit. in the end i'll end up A-less. just get a damn B3! argh.
it's wasted. thats all i can say.
but truly, i'm not really affected by this result. i'm sad-der for accounts and literature. cos that's really bad. really really bad.
got back biology. it was okay. din pass it but i'll pass my science overall after adding physics.
failed by a single tiny winy bit. argh. my position was er. 18???!!! sucks la!
anyway, i came to realise that the position aint everything. it is only "status" if you would say, like you'll know where you stand. perhaps maybe try to strive further from it.
it really isnt everything. so i guess i shouldnt be affected by the fact that i have an extra subject- a math.
even if it'll pull down the rest of my marks. what matters most is my L1R5.
because i'm going to use that to get through sec school and yes, it is indeed important.
i have no mood for enjoying, although i tell so many people to just have fun and not be so upset. i'm going around consoling people etc. what abt myself. i aint that great. failed my lit and a/cs.
2 great subjects. i m just hoping that after moderation, i'll pass a/cs. really don wanna see a fail thingaling in my report book besides lit.
cant help it.
haha. hohoho. overall, i'm happy with it.
just could be better!
+D

generally deproved in most of my subjects, only improved in a few. but i did better for english. thatss the main thing! yeaa.
deproved in
1)E Math
2)Chinese
3)Biology
4)Geography
5)Accounts
6)Literature

improved in
1)Social studies just by 2 marks.
2)A Math
3)Physics
4)English

yes. shall not talk about it anymore.
played cards in the morning.
fun.
then later went to talk to miss shanthi.
din get much from her.

our class is going to be fine k?
there shouldnt be anyone worrying about retaining!
love ya loads.
just enjoy now, and leave the rest to God.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 3:00 PM!

Thursday, October 21, 2004

yes, had tuition.
realised how lagging i m. got a B4 most prolly for chinese.
okay, really sad... can't stop thinking about this.
thats all now.
bye

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 10:54 PM!

wuff. says:
tts good lah
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
not that good la
wuff. says:
omg
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
mid year better
wuff. says:
lol
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
haha
wuff. says:
nt tt good
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
A/CS!
wuff. says:
but good
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
i tell you
wuff. says:
yahlah
wuff. says:
ok
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
we can just go and die
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
fly kite
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
kiss the ground
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
lick mr chans butt
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
slice mr armstrongs fingers
`melissa*ijRgymmer- says:
it was horrible!

haha! you get my point right?
started off the day with chinese.
did alright a B4. whatever bananas!
after chinese collected accounts. bloody hell.
failed badly. lots of people did. very badly. haha! so din get back the MCQ. they wanna use it for moderation. =D oh wellssss... haha, i hope after moderation, i'll pass or something.
haha! yuppie! i SHALL NOT mention lit. it's dissapointing, because i did badly for it! failed it quite a bit. it was worst than my mid years!!! i'm pissed over that. very fucked up.
feline got the highest.

SOCIAL STUDIES ROCKS MY SOCKS.

okay, i shall not stop myself. say whatever you want, not many people reads my blog anyway!
yay. haha. really happy with SS! got my freaking A1! aha. 39/50.
didnt do that well for the first part... got a 16/25
for the second partt, got a better and more decent 23/25!
think it's the highest.

oh wells, can you believe this? my lit. i failed one essay really badly. 7/25!
cos i left out a question i think! yes, they really penalized me a lot. so much for trying to score for one section. oh wells, i hate my Lit to the core. and i do not know how the hell i can improve like in a 3/4 years time. i shall try my very best though.
lucky my other sections were better.

i shall try to improve my accounts, english, chinese, literature, A math further.
and continue working on with e math, phy, bio! and keep up with my geog and social studies.
but geog, shall do more map reading kindda questions.

okayy docks.
that should be about everything i wanna blog about. sad and happy at the same time. i really do not know what life is about. enlighten me someone.
that should be about all.
*crosses my finger*
that i'll pass every subject besides damn lit. =D
i've truly given up on that!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 3:09 PM!

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

math- B4. deproved okay, from A2! hmph.
got back english also. did okay. OKAY only.
physics too. liked the multiple choice. yes. passed everything so far.
a math. horrors of horrors. do not want to talk about it!
and everyone please kindly stop talking about retaining and whatever going to fail this.
going to fail that. like i'm not huh??? oh piss off. i'm freaking pissed.
anyway, to brighten up my day.
had a long day of shopping! with my shopperholic partner. shall refer her to to SP
yup. guess everyone knows who that is.
i had so much fun. awh. shopped like hell. bought nothing besides a wallet...
haha! after school, we rushed to the bus stop. took the same bus as stef, and jaz.
my dear SP and i alighted at fareast and headed straight for lunch!!!
a hungry man is an angry man.
WE WENT TO TAKE NEOS AFTER LUNCH.
anyway, after lunch AND NEOS. hanged around that area then walked to Taka.
on the way there. we saw sharon au filming for some things.
then after that we went to TAKA. went to FOX!
GOD! we tried on so many many clothes and din buy anything. ahha!
it was fun no doubt.
went to topshop. used their com. check out my tagboard man! aha
yea, went to tannlines and surfbabe etc.
after that we decided to leave taka.
so headed to heeren next.
on the way we grabbed strawberry milkshake regular.
and yup. HAHA. oh! i forgot. this guy approached us.
sorry ah. my sequencing quite bad. this happened just before reaching wisma.
haa. he asked for a damn donation and said that we were from RGS!
hello? do we look that nerdy?
is our badge that rusty? is our uniform that new?
some people are obviously blind by nature!
anyway, we went to taka. and yes.
came up of the escalator.
saw this BIG crowd hanging around!
realised that they were contemplating whether or not they should go up to that dumb SYLVESTER SIM! who was busily signing autographs and taking photos.
my dear friend just approached him. stuffed her milkshake into my hand and tapped his should.
ahem. i was embarrassed. omg. yucks. hah! i tried not to acknowledge her.
yes he autographed on her english paper! omg. wth! haha. my god. i still can't believe i witnessed such a thing. omg omg omg! come back to life melissa. omg. ahha!
anyhows, we went up. shopped around!
yes, leighanne went nuts over the fact that she went up to him.
then we took neos again! that was so fun and nice. ahah! and then we went to esprit. tried on this spag. and skirt and all. din buy in the end. poo. haha!
anyway, after all that. went back to cine.
yup. shopped a bit. SP bought her shorts.
and yup. went home.
old mama cooked dinner for me tonight.
it tasted great. as usual. love her food.
hahaa, oh wells. that's abt all for today.

i'm not in the mood for some more.
really pissed over the big bull i've made.
and yes, my exam results aint that fantastic.
shall work harder during the hols.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 10:50 PM!

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

yes, i'm getting bored.
we're getting our papers back tomorrow.
oh no! my life is just revolving around this circle.
circle of friends, exams, results, scoldings and naggings, choir, church!
yes. that is how boring my life is.
sad to say.

oh wells, i'm getting irritated.
my brothers irritating.
okay, i shall stop using that word "irritating"
because it is getting irritating. and i'm irritated.
i'm exasperated... my grandmother's frustrating.
yes, grating.
okay. there isnt any other kinda word for me to describe my feelings.
not that i can think of.
my grandmother is getting over the limit man.
she's acting like some damn queen towards my new maid.
like my maid owes her a living or something.
that's cos my maid is dumb. as in she cant communicate.
and there you hear my grandmother scolding here!
argh. it's pissing me off somehow.
i've had enough of this.
the whole day. i just hear her voice.
screaming, shouting!!!

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anyway, really tired. did quite a bit of exercise today.
=D shall sleep soon!
i'm really scared for tomorrow.

confidence level:
~~very low~~
low
okay
~~high~~
~~very high~~

scary ah? doesnt it seem??? you do not see any papers which i'm 100% confident about.
we shall wait till it comes out.
i shall not escape from the truth.
i shall face it.

anyway, wanna go and sleep soon.
had pasta for dinner.
grandmother made it.
did not taste as good as hers
ah wells, adaptating.
wanna sleep already.
dunno why so early today but yeas.
guess i'm wierd.
going out with leighanne tomorrow.
yay! haha. towning.
wheres the money?! erhum
=) cya dudes. tc all. bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 9:00 PM!

1. you are known as: Mel, melsa, melly, melliness??
2. your age: 15
3. your sch: IJ toa payoh
4. your residence: Oleander Towers
5. when were you born: 16th May 1989

- have you ever -
6. eaten lizards: no
7. skipped school: yes
8: kissed someone: yes

9. appeared on a tv show: yes
10. fought with a close friend: yes
11. lied to your parents: yes
13. lost someone dear to you: yes
14: sang infront of a crowd: yes
15: picked a fight for no reason: no
16. called someone a 'bootlicker': yes

- what do you like -
17. which is your fave shopping mall: Heeren, Cine, Far East, PS, J8, (am i listing the shopping malls in Singapore or what?
18.sport: Rhythmic Gymnastics
19. your fave movie star: -
20. your fave friends: -
21. your fave colour(s): pink
22. your fave phrase: -
23. your fave hang-out spot: raffels town club
24. your fave sch rules: -

- the last -
25. person that called you: natalie
26. person you called: mommy
27. tv show you watched: -
28. music listened to: what dreams are made of
29. food eaten: strawberry youghurt
30. last person you talked to on msn: tricia and william
31. testimonial received: nat and adeline.
32. latest friend that added in your account: sri? i dunno.
33. book read: flowers in the attic

-prefer -
34. green or brown: green
35. pasta or pizza: pasta
36. future wedding: i want to be a nun.
37. house you'd love to live in: somewhere convinient.
38. haversack or sling bags: sling bags
39. who is hot: me.
40. lastly, one person you could never live w/o: you

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 3:01 PM!

oh wheeeness, sorry i did not edit the previous post.
came home late last night. around 2???
haha! and woke up at 11 plus near 12 today.
such a pig i am right?
btw, i'm still missing her.
today's gonna be really slack.
decided to clear up my room.
but i guess i'm just slacking around.
my house is so chaotic!
horrible. my brother is crying.
and my grandmother is screaming.
my sister is laughing!
or rather giggling......!!! at them?
i'm just in my own room watching the scene.
of my grandmother trying to feed my problematic brother.
oh goodness.
"enough! eat this now. or i m going to give your peach tart to the aunty downstairs."
"i don't want!!! i don't want" *runs around the house and cries*
"i'm going to take the cane now!"
*cries and cries* "i want to vomit" *continues crying*
"then no peach tart, since you want to vomit!"
*cries even louder!*
mei mei *giggles and screams*

get my point? okay, i'm feeling rather satisfied.
after a million years, my grandmother is cooking!
her food just rocks to bits!
i love it. =D
had a sumptious meal. so guess i'd be heading downstairs soon.
the weather doesnt look good.
so i guess no suntanning.
maybe just swimming! ahaha, going out later, this evening.
oh wells, guess i'd update later.
see ya dudes!

pointers to include in my prayers:
1) that the teachers will not be so harsh when marking papers
2) to accept whatever results i get back and account it for the amount of work i put in.
3) for all those taking their exams now, that they may stay focussed and concentrate well.
4) for ongy, that she may recover fast and come back asap.
5) for all the people suffering in the world, may the cause be lack of food, shelter or even love. May they be granted with God's special blessing so that more people will be touched and are therefore willing to reach out to them.
6) World Peace
7) that my dear ones may be blessed with good health.
8) that 3/8 remains dear always.
9) that she stays happy always

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 1:28 PM!

Monday, October 18, 2004

*screams wildly*
i don't know why. really excited about i don't know what!
i'm excited about the coming holidays and events!
i'm excited about loving you more but i don't know how to.
oh lord, please help me.
i just came back from dinner, it was okay.
oh, messages are exploding. so if i do not reply you. i'm so sorry okay?
i reached a thousand already this month. and it's only the 18th.
oh mans! i dont know how many free messages i have.
but if i'm not wrong it's 300 or 400! i'm so dead!
anyways, i'm dead bored.
anybody that wants to go out with me at night?
i'm free at night. nothing to do...... oh wells! life sucks at night.
i need more fun! going to play pool later! yay. although i don't know how to.
just gonna watch them. =D haha! yupps, then going to swensens and airport.
dunno for what?! i don't wanna go to the airport!!! argh.
reminds me of her departure.

it's like a balloon.
once you have to let go, you let go. there is no choice.
and it will fly.
fly up into the sky. high high high. so high that you can't see it anymore.
and it'll never come back to you.
it will NEVER! you will not even know what happens to it.
all you know is that it's gone.
and yes, it will never come back! never.

okay i shall stop it right here right now.
anyway, yes. i'm bored now. tomorrow i wanna pack my room.
go to the gym.
and yup. it shall be rest day for me.
going for a swim too!
and yahs, suppose to file my things! all the worksheets.
bet i will be too lazy to do it.
and after that i wanna go shopping!
again. =D
okay. brb. shall edit this opst later!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 8:48 PM!

oh yay!
i just got home...
lifes good. (but still not w/o her!)
yeas, woke up late. so i was 1/2 an hour late.
suppose to meet nat at 11. changed it to 11.30
so reached at 11.50?
haha. oops... woke up at 10.40 larhs!
anyway, we took a cab to ikea.
yup, so from J8 to ikea, great stuff this is.
went there and pigged out!
ate loads... first was spag...
nat and i took a plate each.
plus the swedish meatballs, we shared that.
PLUS, a plate of chicken and rice.
the eating thingaling was fine.
but carrying it back to the seat was embarrassing.
haha, our whole table was decorated with food!
after that... we walked around.
we were passing each other static.
that was really funny. (elaborate urself)
anyway, right after lunch...
i went down to buy ice cream. so nice. haha!
nat was too full to even move.
anyway, we walked around and i took so many things.
felt like some aunty; to be specific some KiaSu aunty from the market.
i was holding on to this really nice dustbin. $3!!!
and carpets, for my room.
oh yeas, and struggling with CD racks.
anyway, after a while...
nat and i decided that a trolley will help us.
so we got one. and filled it up in no time.
in the end, i just bought this BIG notice board like thingaling.
it was red in colour.
plus a carpet like thing for my room!
after shopping, we went to orchard
took neos, went shopping and all.
then went home.
saw mon , nat and claire in the train.
yeas, going for dinner now.
cya! tc all. bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 7:05 PM!

she's out of my life.
i am still adjusting.
i need more time.
life's too short, and the clocks ticking.
no ones waiting for me.

i still miss her XP
i so do.
todays happenings:
went out with Feline to Orchard;
did some shopping but more eating;
had fun;
went for a math tuition at 4;
didnt have fun;
learnt vectors;
walked home;
mom cooked porridge;
did not taste as good as hers;
i really miss cooking, but i miss her more;
went for dinner again with old mama and Gian;
ate at Thai express;
went shopping a bit;
went home.

predictable tomorrow;
wake up early;
meet natalie;
go shopping;
eat lunch;
take a cab to ikea;
do more shopping;
have more fun;
come back ~~home~~ to the empty house;
SETTLE dinner myself;

yess, it's different without her now.
life's never gonna be the same again.
i wish her well, and that may God bless her forever.

i recall the times i ordered her around.
and the times she layed her soft hands and put me to bed.
the different ways she tried to wake me up for school.
the food she brought to school for me to eat.
the fun times we spent at Korea and New Zeland.
all the days she made me smile.
i hate myself for being rude to her;
it really hurts to think about it.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 12:20 AM!

Sunday, October 17, 2004

i'm so sad now.
this sadness has gotten into me and churned my being into pieces,
it has multiplied my tears
and brought coldness into my life.
her presense kept me warm.
she fed me and made me strong.
now that shes gone, what am i left with?
what can i do?
departure is the word.
i can't let go.
she grew up with me, and made me what i am.
whats the point of living without her?
she eased my pain,
reduced my stress,
and she kept me going on.
she just means a lot to me.
i want to be with her forever.
this is as despairing as it sounds.
i do not want to continue dwelling into this anguishing crisis.
i'm not exaggerating.
i am feeling lost.
oh god, please keep me going on.
i really do love her,
and hate myself for the wrongs i have done.
i shall cry myself to sleep tonight.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 1:08 AM!

Saturday, October 16, 2004

yay! still in the happy mood.
havent gotten over it so fast. oh yay! i want this feeling to last forever!
oh yay! haha, i woke up at arnd 8, had dance at 9. until 12...
yay! haha! mom fetched me to tp interchange! met feline, then went for lunch.
aha! then cath class... ate noodles in the soup thing. don't know what you call it.
it's in chinese. oh wells, then i went for cath class. quite okay.
lame stuff from the guys as usual.
after cath class, i went for ice cream with feline!!!
and shopped a bit. and i went back to church for choir practice.
then mass, and dinner. oh yeahs. my days gone.
i'm so happy! yay yay! ahah. cant wait for tmr! going shopping.
sadly i got a math tuition AGAIN! at 4!
WTF! haha. anyways, theres still monday and tuesday to enjoy.
=D heehees. that's all for today.
i'm getting sick again. my nose and ears are block. haha.......
and my throat is quite pain. ahh! i dont wanna get sick now!
omg. ahha. anyway, still enjoying myself a lot.
going for a swim. and then going to the gym.
sleeping late tonight.
hahaha! bye folks. hope you're having fun too....
=D st gabs still have another week. haha, SJIs done too.
lalala, CJians, november! haha. so yeas, all those done. haha enjoy!
those not. all the best dears! haha. okay, thats abt it for tdy.
God loves everyone! bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 9:50 PM!

Friday, October 15, 2004

oh goodneesss!
there are no words to describe my hapiness.
i'm so so so happy. it's absolutely undescribable.
ahh! hahas. exams over today.
omg omg omg. exams over. i love this feeling =D
going out out out out! everyday. oh mans.
haha! went for a suntan today.
before blogging that, shall talk abt a math
it was better than mid year.
could do more questions.
but still gonna fail.
wells shall wait for the results.
okokok! after that boon and i went home.
KS feline, toh n fiona was there already.
soaking wet! the pool was just damn irresistable huh?
haha! then i went out to wait for andrea...
and we all went up to change.
it was only andrea and i changing lahs.
anyway, we rushed down. jumped into the pool and played like small kids.
it was hilarious. ahha! had fun. yeahs *nods*
catching, erm, find some coin thing etc.
andrea and i went to the playground.
sat the swing, the slide! what haf i gotta say? deprived childhood?
maybe. Dina and Feline were in the pool playing and diving.
oh wadeva! XD fiona and toh and boon were desperately trying to get a tan
i think andrea and i succeeded more.
hahas. cos after the swim, they all came up to my house.
took ages! feline went to bathe first. then followed by tohtoh.
and fiona. then dina.
there are 2 toilets lah. anyway, then andrea and i went to bathe together.
yes together.
in bikinis lah. so it was okay, until we had to change.
ahha, did it anyway, omg. the tan lines are there.
then toh and fiona were like asking why we got tan so fast!
ahah. the rest of them (toh, feline, fiona, dina, boon) seemed to be having fun with my brother in the hall playing tornado or something?
and yea, whilst andrea n i were bathing.
haha! like knocking each other etc. ahahha!
we called in 2 pizzas. parttyyy.
oh yeass. then feline toh n fiona had to leave, cos they wanted to go for some health check thing at Park Mall! whilst boon and andrea were playing the Sims.
and i choosing my clothes!
took damn long to choose them. haha! changed from a green crossback to a pink crossback.
with berms, then changed to shorts-skirt. then changed to a skirt.
then changed to 3/4s. and then changed to dunno what? and finall settled for blue shorts and a white halter, was confused lah.
anyway, after that. andrea and i like applied this layer of nail polish. and dina accompanied my brother. played with him and my sister. boon left already.
and yea, we left like finally! ahha
took the train down to PS.
omg. haha. we two vain pots. my god. both of us were like looking at every reflection and mirror we see... touching our hair and adjusting our clothes.
haha. fun fun funny, shopped a bit,
then met ethel, pam, linnette, and nicole. we went to buy goodies.
haha food. to eat for the pinic.
andrea and i got yougurt! haha. and dina too...!!!
and dina and i bought MOS also.
we all shared potato chips, marsh mellows, strawerries.
junk and more junk!
and fruit juice for us. ahha! since andrea, dina and i were sick we shared the same drink!
oops, *guilty look* haha, i think i passed the flu around.
anyways, had some fun chatting and all during the picnic.
it was at fort canning! hahas.
then watched "ballet under the stars "
it rocks. the danceers were greatt!!! haha. the guys were hot.
i liked it. oh gosh! andrea, dina and i couldnt resist. we bought the ballet under the stars shirt.
ahaha! then yeaps, nice show! pam n linnette was so lucky!
they won the lucky draw!
2 free tix! omg omg.
haha oh oh. going for supper now. yay! haha.
i'm excited abt tmr.
i see a point in living now.
life anticipates wonders.
bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 12:21 PM!

Thursday, October 14, 2004

omg omg. one more day left.
i'm gonna screw a math.
ahha! okay. see ya everyone.
dont wanna talk abt a/cs!
did bad! balance sheet din balance.
oh whatevers! k.

beverley; bevvaye!!!!!!!
fiona; yes yes yes! omg. haha!!! call you tonight. or feline will call ya.
cass; haha yes. just gonna flunk A math! =D see ya this sat! thanks dear.
adel; hey babaehhss. yupps! suntan. with feline and nat also?

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 1:47 PM!

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

oh my sugar.
the papers today were goood. too good for me.
i was so careless.
bio was shit.
sugar i mean!
just letting go of that. its so duh i'm gonna fail.
bad feeling-
English
A math
Bio
POA

oh manz... do you see that long damn list of subjects? yeeks!!! I hate this bad feeling thing.
i woke up early today.
slept early last night.
i couldnt sleep anymore when my alarm rang.
i was just bloody nervous. reached school darn early.
oh wells, what can i do eh?
tried to cram. trish, mon and i just freaked ourselves out. and i got more confused. it was okay anyway, then we ran to St mikes, TYP right behind us.
anyway, bio paper sucked! i din know quite a bit.
MCQ was darn easy.
so easy that i made so many careless mistakes
like carbon dioxide is given off by the plant when its oxygen
i'm like dreaming or what?
and the stupidest thing on earth- distance=Speed times Time
i put speed over time. so my answer for that MCQ was freaking wrong!
oh god. i wish i was more careful man!
after the paper. i like checked my freaking answers with so many people.
mostly the same except for a few.
=D yay! but still! i'm pissed. i'd rather not know then be careless.
what does this say abt me?
that i'm impatient
cos i just jump into the question
that i'm careless
blur.
stupidified!
argh!!! shant put myself down like that
anyways i cant wait for Friday.
going tanning n partying! and picnicing! whoo hooooossss!!!!!!!!!!!!!
planned so much already
gonna get my camera batteries
and swimming + gym + badminton and all!
and also shopping on Sat with feline they all!
omg i'm freaking excitedd!
then cath class, choir! oh mans. yes yes!
and sunday; tuition! bloody fuck sugar
a math tuition somemore.
nvm. shall go to the gym for some nice workout in the morning.
followed by a sumptious meal with someone.
then go for tuition at 4.
Monday; i'm going shopping again!
omg omg. i'm so happy. (now- for later)
and Tuesday; going to the beach most prolly.
wednesday; going shopping again with leighanne i think! yay! whoo hoos.
Thursday; not sure if i have rhythmic. if not i'm going towning!
Friday; i got tuition! crappit. chinese tuition. yewl. haha!
okay. but b4 that. i gotta mug first! hahas!
oh something really cool happened today.
i went for lunch with my maid and there was this company asking me for photoshootingaling.
and the best thing is that i get paid. but i didnt agree just like that, they gave me this brochure thing, and some shits, so if i want i must get back to them! it's during the holiday.
haha! but i doubt mommy will allow! she'll say that she rather pay me to study.
obviously. but yea, think it's really cool! will see how. =D
tomorrows my accounts. i think i'm fine if i learn my stuff. but i havent! and i doubt anything will ever pass through my head! wanna go bathe now. might update later! really full! ate loads for lunch. to be specific. it's laksa, 2 pratas and rice!
kk! just got home. =D cyas!

mood: excited and scared.
you should know why excited; exams almost over!
scared; the two papers i'm left with... not prepared!

count down.
English
Chinese
Math
Phy/Bio
Social Studies/Geog
Literature
POA
A math

i do not know whether you're reading this.
but if you are, i wanna let you know that i'm not prepared for anything
please believe me.
i do not want to let you go like that
i'm really confused.
i love you baby.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 11:25 AM!

oh my sugar.
the papers today were goood. too good for me.
i was so careless.
bio was shit.
sugar i mean!
just letting go of that. its so duh i'm gonna fail.
bad feeling-
English
A math
Bio
POA

oh manz... do you see that long damn list of subjects? yeeks!!! I hate this bad feeling thing.
i woke up early today.
slept early last night.
i couldnt sleep anymore when my alarm rang.
i was just bloody nervous. reached school darn early.
oh wells, what can i do eh?
tried to cram. trish, mon and i just freaked ourselves out. and i got more confused. it was okay anyway, then we ran to St mikes, TYP right behind us.
anyway, bio paper sucked! i din know quite a bit.
MCQ was darn easy.
so easy that i made so many careless mistakes
like carbon dioxide is given off by the plant when its oxygen
i'm like dreaming or what?
and the stupidest thing on earth- distance=Speed times Time
i put speed over time. so my answer for that MCQ was freaking wrong!
oh god. i wish i was more careful man!
after the paper. i like checked my freaking answers with so many people.
mostly the same except for a few.
=D yay! but still! i'm pissed. i'd rather not know then be careless.
what does this say abt me?
that i'm impatient
cos i just jump into the question
that i'm careless
blur.
stupidified!
argh!!! shant put myself down like that
anyways i cant wait for Friday.
going tanning n partying! and picnicing! whoo hooooossss!!!!!!!!!!!!!
planned so much already
gonna get my camera batteries
and swimming + gym + badminton and all!
and also shopping on Sat with feline they all!
omg i'm freaking excitedd!
then cath class, choir! oh mans. yes yes!
and sunday; tuition! bloody fuck sugar
a math tuition somemore.
nvm. shall go to the gym for some nice workout in the morning.
followed by a sumptious meal with someone.
then go for tuition at 4.
Monday; i'm going shopping again!
omg omg. i'm so happy. (now- for later)
and Tuesday; going to the beach most prolly.
wednesday; going shopping again with leighanne i think! yay! whoo hoos.
Thursday; not sure if i have rhythmic. if not i'm going towning!
Friday; i got tuition! crappit. chinese tuition. yewl. haha!
okay. but b4 that. i gotta mug first! hahas!
oh something really cool happened today.
i went for lunch with my maid and there was this company asking me for photoshootingaling.
and the best thing is that i get paid. but i didnt agree just like that, they gave me this brochure thing, and some shits, so if i want i must get back to them! it's during the holiday.
haha! but i doubt mommy will allow! she'll say that she rather pay me to study.
obviously. but yea, think it's really cool! will see how. =D
tomorrows my accounts. i think i'm fine if i learn my stuff. but i havent! and i doubt anything will ever pass through my head! wanna go bathe now. might update later! really full! ate loads for lunch. to be specific. it's laksa, 2 pratas and rice!
kk! just got home. =D cyas!

mood: excited and scared.
you should know why excited; exams almost over!
scared; the two papers i'm left with... not prepared!

count down.
English
Chinese
Math
Phy/Bio
Social Studies/Geog
Literature
POA
A math

i do not know whether you're reading this.
but if you are, i wanna let you know that i'm not prepared for anything
please believe me.
i do not want to let you go like that
i'm really confused.
i love you baby.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 12:57 AM!

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

i'm blogging three times today.
tomorrows the bio paper.
whateverr! i wanna annonce this
"i hate my mother!"
i wish such bitch doesnt exist on the surface of the earth
she asked how prepared i m for tmr's paper
i said totally not
and she flairs and nags and alL!
wad the fish! and she keeps telling me abt the damn soft approach vs soft approach thing.
bloody hell, and she was practically yelling her head off cos i put my newspapers under my table where all the electric circuit it and all, and she was 'enlightening' me about how dangerous it is! bloody fish sugar.
goodness! damn pissed. cos i'm pissed! not gonna study.
oh whateverr.
going to cry myself to sleep.
good night

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 10:32 PM!

my confirmation name is most probably danielle or celestine. narrowed it down. Claira is not that me so i guess nopes. i dunno larhz.
i'm dead. fail my bio manz. whatever! byes!!!

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melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 7:17 PM!

today had my geog paper.
English
Chinese
Math
Physics
Literature
Geography
Social Studies
Biology
POA
A math

3 to go. i'm superbly excited!
cant wait to go shopping
take neos. suntan. choir
everything! oh mans.

ah wells, about today. it was quite okay. think better then what i thought it would be like! the paper was relatively easy, but i guessed did not do it to the best i could! oh wells, should have put in more effort. crapps. wonder what kinda marks i'll get manz. we'll see about that. Theres bio tomorrow. i'm screwed. went for lunch n breakfast with nat.
wanna start studying now. oh everyone please dont sms me already, i might not reply unless its darn impt. sent about a thousand smses this month so far. i'm just so dead. oh wells, that's abt it for now. cya! bye n study hard.

william~ okay. hahas, not yet.
nicole~ oh okay, after the exams k??? bz! ahha! seeyas
babeh~ thanks dearie. miss you loadss!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 3:48 PM!

Monday, October 11, 2004

i have to blog abt this!
the exams sucked today. didnt do it to the best as i should have
really dissapointed la.
math was such a waste! chinese. only 3 words to describe it.
i deserve it.
didnt study the words thingaling. hope my compre (haha) and other sections pass me.
it'll determine everything. ok
gonna study for geog.
really pissed with math.
should have done some time management.
the paper was okay on the whole, just dont have a good feeling that i'll do well
cos i know i won't. there goes my A1
and eya. bye!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 3:12 PM!

Sunday, October 10, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!
oh mans, there are 2 freaking papers tomorrow.
don't worry it's not dooms day yet. till Wednesday comes. and then followed by Thursday and Friday.
i'll just die! you all wait and see yea?
todays mommys bday! woke up at 9! went online. made a card. played sims!
call me retarded! whatever.
went for buffet lunch at phoenix hotel.
so full! then after that came home abt 4! then i went to buy for mommy cake and 39 roses.
omg. such a big bundle! cos shes 39 so 39 stalks.
omg, went mad then bought the cake...... after i came home i went for a swim and attempted to sun tan.
got a bit of tan. =) cant really see la. oh wells after my bath...
i went for dinner, at suntec. just got home! gonna sleep now.
see ya dudes, watch me fail.
slacked the whole of today.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 11:02 PM!

Saturday, October 09, 2004

hey there. today was a great day.
haha! there was nothing great about today; but yea, God was with me.
i just know it.
my phone rang early! woke up.
met feline and toh at 8.
then we saw Mr Tang and his wife to be.
haha... oh yea. so funnyyy!!! omg. haha! =D toh n fiona were making fun of them in class.
=) oh wells, after a wonderful breakfast... i went to school. took 231.
reached there at arnd 9. mr tang was slightly late.
yayneesss he bought for us Macs. hashbronws. haha. so sweet of him right?
everyone was like munching and listening.
haha! =D anyway, listened quite a bit... went through tys and the exam how to study.
as in the grouping of chapters.
then i left at 10. had chinese tuition.
=D ended after so many times of ting xie. failed practically every ting xie. i was given like 3 to 4 times. my teacher gave up after that, i guess theres lots of work to be put in now.
i can see how lagging i m. oh wells! my only source of hope--
everythings gone. nothings left! i dunno what i m supposed to do.
argh. whats to be in love? i need some enlightenment. nvm.
continuing with my day, i had tuition and then like changed. met Feline and Natalie.
we went to J8 foodcourt, ate lunch. then went to cafecartel.
bought a drink, mocha. haha! anyway, i studied quite a bit.
hui ping came along, feline's friend. haha... yea, did math. solved for them stuff, and at the same time asking them chinese!
i suck at it big time. haha after that i went for mass. choir was okay.
walked home with jerome, then ate a wonderful dinner. my maids cooked.
yea. gonna study soon.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 9:37 PM!

today was the lit paper.
it was okay. not expecting much
we'll see what happens.
chosen my confirmation name. in a big dilema. dunno what! how?
here are the few,
Marie
Celestine
Danielle
Clara
i want something to do with Mary cos i love her loads. haha! that is the most meaningful kind.
Celestine sounds just nice, mom and kuku picked it out for me.
Danielle, i quite like it.

St. Daniel, the Stylite, Priest. Feast day is December 11. Daniel was born in Maratha, Syria in 409 and became a monk in nearby Samosata on the Upper Euphrates. He learned of St. Simeon Stylites the Elder, living on a pillar at Antioch and got to see him twice. At the age of forty-two, Daniel decided that he too wanted to become a stylite (from the Greek word "stylos", meaning pillar) and live on a pillar at a spot near Constantinople. Therefore, Emperor Leo I, built a series of pillars with a platform on top for him, and Daniel was ordained there by St. Gennadius. The saint quickly became an attraction for the people. He celebrated the Eucharist on his pillar, preached sermons, dispensed spiritual advice, and cured the sick who were brought up to him. He also gave prudent counsel to Emperors Leo and Zeno and the patriarch of Constantinople. All the while, Daniel lived his particular type of pillar spirituality. He came down from his perch only once in thirty-three years - to turn Emperor Baliscus away from backing the heresy of Monophysitism. Daniel died in 493 and became the best known Stylite after St. Simeon Stylites the Elder. The life of St. Daniel the Stylite is an apt reminder that there are many ways to live the spiritual life. All of us have our own way to be close to God every day. Our task is to find that way and follow it to the very end.

yes, if you could be bothered to read that, good for you. god bless you loads.
haha! oh wells, today after lit paper. i went home and changed into my new skirt! haha! yay!
and the yellow tank. then went to meet feline and boon, feline bought a new pair of heels. then she FORCED me to buy one too. so yea. bought a pair today. from far east.
we ate chicken rice for lunch. then ate fruits after that.
haaha! oh wells, then after a bit of shopping we stopped by Starbucks.
studied quite a bit. completed chinese words. need to do ci zi and zao ju now.
yay! haha... bought heated milk. healthy nice and good.
oh wells, had no mood for coffee thats why. then after that before meeting the rest.
i bought another mini skirt. about the same length as the black and pink one i wore. haaha!
then feline and i went to novena squarre to look see look see.
then met toh and fiona and nicole oh and claire...
we went to fish and co for a nice great long meal. shared with claire. haah! everything. then we like walked to Novena, did some reflections and praying.
for so many things. shant mention the normals lah har?
exams, health, friends, forgiveness etc
had the mass proper. we altogether with monica and nat sat praying for the prayer specially made. oh wait when we were doing that mon and nat havent arrived yet.
oh wells, then we prayed together. i can feel the power of it man.
it is working. i have 100% faith it is.
after mass was this special blessing thing.
slain.
so so so many people just fainted, or like went onto the floor......
some just cried. i could feel suddenly when i closed my eyes i was like just gone weak all over.
couldnt feel much. just felt the holy spirit. feline, fiona and claire did.
it was great. i went first. toh just freaked out.
oh wells, saw mons ex. john. yewl. haha! and i saw my friends! haha......
oh wells, we continued praying after that blessing. when the priest asked for my intentions. i said exam! haha. really hope that there are miracles. haha. oh wells, then we strolled back to the train station.
had a great day today. god was with me. i can sense it. i hope he will stay with me all the way of my life, and lead me, guiding me side by side, and holding my hand.

To you alone, Most High, do they belong, and no mortal lips are worthy to pronounce Your Name.

Praised be You my Lord with all Your creatures,
especially Sir Brother Sun,
Who is the day through whom You give us light.
And he is beautiful and radiant with great splendour,
Of You Most High, he bears the likeness.

Praised be You, my Lord, through Sister Moon and the stars,
In the heavens you have made them bright, precious and fair.

Praised be You, my Lord, through Brothers Wind and Air,
And fair and stormy, all weather's moods,
by which You cherish all that You have made.

Praised be You my Lord through Sister Water,
So useful, humble, precious and pure.

Praised be You my Lord through Brother Fire,
through whom You light the night and he is beautiful and playful and robust and strong.

Praised be You my Lord through our Sister,
Mother Earth
who sustains and governs us,
producing varied fruits with coloured flowers and herbs.
Praise be You my Lord through those who grant pardon for love of You and bear sickness and trial.

Blessed are those who endure in peace, By You Most High, they will be crowned.

Praised be You, my Lord through Sister Death,
from whom no-one living can escape. Woe to those who die in mortal sin! Blessed are they She finds doing Your Will.

No second death can do them harm. Praise and bless my Lord and give Him thanks,
And serve Him with great humility.

tatas. tc dearies... bye

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 12:06 AM!

Thursday, October 07, 2004

haha. hoooray.
it's thursday. one more day to go before the closure of this week
i wanna end it peacefully! without any conflicts and worries...
today i had physics.
it was *woooh* =D i really dunno what to say.
i would say that it was quite easy. do-able rather.
screwed it up AGAIN! as usual.
so hard!!!!!!!
oh shit! am i contradicting myself?
i think if it was an open book test it would have been better.
the answers were everywhere
just couldnt think of it.
like i dunno how the pout to do the question 9.
which i attempted together with 8.
it was 8,9 and 10!
10 was totally out. i dun even understand a single sugar about it.
hahaha! yeas. screwed up the entire section A!
don't wanna talk about it no more.
omg. A view from the bridge. (no more) poo.
i'm mugging for literature.
everyone i'm gonna kill myself!
goonna get like what? 7/25 for everything.
especially paper 2! (A S O B)
cos i havent even read the book once!
screw it. a sense of belonging sucks.
i hate it! i suck it at like big time.
dont know nothing.
omg. crappit. XD just safe me now. somebody. anybody.
i'm just relying on my AVFTB n unseen.
yes unseen. i'm dreaming.
i wanna go downstairs to destress! oh sugar sugar.
oh manz, i aint going no where.
i'm staying home. yes i m. sugar sugar!
argh. i m gonna pray real hard tmr during masss.
guess mommy's fetching me after Novena
i also dunno!
but before all that its the literature paper.
oh mans... how?
think maybe i should take quick action now!
bye darlings.
i'm recovering. can sing talk laugh everything.
though it sounds abit. haha. nvm
we'll awit and see what happens! =D
i m contemplating whether i should go for choir this sat.
nicole wans to pon. go orchard?!!! no! obviously not.
aha. but if i have no voice maybe i will be studying at home.
dunno leh. hahaa. but its a 70 30.
getting my voice back as i said.
just dont wanna loose it now.
hahahas. bye for now.
takecare everyone

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 9:01 PM!

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

oh bloody dung.
i dunno so many things.
physics is gonna kill me.
oh sugar! fine sugary sugar.
help! how? i am attempting to do the TYS
oh useless piece of dung.
i'm panicking now
seriously i m
goodness knows best.
argh. everyone remember to bring your calculators and protractors tomorrow.
and tissue paper if you need it.
i call it the three essentials.
besides the pencil case, wallet, hairband, etc. thats called the normals.
so yea rmb everything.
=D all the best three eight.
love you loads.
i m gonna suck la. suck big time at this.
lost hope already. oh wells. bye.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 10:46 PM!

social studies paper will killing.
it was relatively easy.
i screwed it up. (as usual)
hope i would do just slightly worst than mid years.
or around the same will be fine.
i think i could have done much better.
rambled quite a bit.
nvm. i'll wait till the results are out.
mid years i did like superb for the source based.
i lost 7 marks altogether.
lost only erm. 2 marks for source based and 5 for structured.
haha. so yea. 23 altogether.
this time i predict it'll be like loosing 5 marks each!
oh crap. god save me now. nvm... shall pray over it this friday.
sat theres bio class.
oh before going on further i wanna say a big thank you to those that told me homework or smsed me and all yesterday;
mon, leighanne, ongy, pamela, nat, steffy, tohtoh, feline, clarissa.
thanks a million. i'm getting my voice back! yay!
right. haha jsut in time for choir this sat.
what rotten luck!
sucks man. haha. oh wells, chinese paper 1 today
wad can you expect from me?
bull!
i did the formal letter. whatever you call it in chinese
and i did erm the last question - 5
about the newspaper report.
haha. couldnt figure out what the heck was 3 and 4
so i guess i was left with no choice.
besides for tuition i did something similar
it was that the newspaper reporting that more and more kids are getting bullied nowadays. and there was like the statistics. of how they were bullied; ie: emotionally hurt, making fun of them, or like mere physically bullying!
haha. whatever it is. cant be bothered.
crapped it through
then i went to BK in Novena for lunch after school.
the dilapidated bus sucked. i was so hot! and squashed. nat and pam almost resulted in standing on the steps.
whahahha! anyway, after lunch at BK. i did a bit of reading.
read my notes once through.
with some talking here and there.
actually a lot.
haha! then when Pamela left, we started to get serious.
not until nat wanted to use the toilet and instead we decided that BK was not condusive for learning. (totally!)
we walked all the way to united square!
haha. went to Macs there. it was kinda okay.
quiet. with people studying. some eating. the usual i guess.
and i got so sleepy
slept for like 16 minutes!
then woke up and went to wash my face in the toilet.
hahahhas. then i continued successfully until around 4 plus near 5.
after which... ... we walked around, took a break
went to look at some pens and all.
and yea, bought this chinese black medicine.
desperate to get my voice back dammit.
anyway, still felt quite sick today.
besides the flu i have and an undescribably bad cough... i was quite feverish.
haha! during chinese only lah.
hope i'll be fine tomorrow.
i'll be praying hard!
alrights, i guess that should be about it.
oh i have gotta say this.
i screwed my SS mainly cos i interpreted SOURCE A wrongly!
oh holy fuck shit.
i m damn pissed lah
i said that that was a chicken!!! i said that the they used it to represent the UN!
and i it was like injured using clutches and all...
yea so i said that it was not effective as the role it played like did not work well.
cos they themselves are injured.
and cos they are injured! they cant help themselves even!
and like the damn chicken was like giving this cheese sign.
or like u know when u put ur fingers into a number 2!
yea. and i said that they were seeking peace etc.
blar blar blar. for so much i've said.
it's not a bloody chicken!
it's a damn dove!
not a chicken!
omg. screw SS bloody hell!
hope the other sections will save me!
whatever.
okay. so now. i'm gonna transfer all my frustrations to physics.
now is 6.31! i have 3 hours flat to do my physics.
oh shit. need to bathe first.
okay. wish me luck!

untouchable; i'm only reserved for you.

nicole; thanks dear. you too!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 5:49 PM!

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

okay. as i promised.
i'm back. i didnt do that much today.
but wells, considered quite okay.
compared to the other days!
completed 2 chapters of physics notes.
and i'm proud to proclaim that is the last 2 chapters.
omg. i so rock man! so happy.
btw. that 2 chapters were the long long ones!
and now's 4.21!!! i've gotta mug.
my social studies paper is tomorrow.
and chinese compo and letter writting as well
that's so rush.
awh! crappit. =D finished my ss notes.
but confidence level; 3/10!
i need to boost it. until you see if shooting up!
all the way. sky high. 10/10!
okay. maybe that's being overconfident.
a decent nine will do.
now it's 3!
like its not the matter of whether i have written my notes or not.
but the point is that i do not know whether i can do the paper.
as in if i would know how to apply what i've learnt
and btw. i havent learnt anything,
just wrote notes.
thats not studying. so i need to go read through once more.
and get more famaliar with it.
then i need to memorise the format for chinese for tmr,
oh gosh! god bless me!
i know he is in his own way.
=D strong faith!
crapps. i still have NO VOICE.
sucks sucks,
okay. please do tag my board.
please.
haha. under links theres another tag board.
haha. i din know why i put 2 diff ones. but i guess cos i had nothing better to do.
need to take my medicine!!!
I WILL SURVIVE!
i m not gonna let the medicine control me.
i'm gonna control it.
i'm not gonna sleep! oh yea i m not!
cyall bye!
update later AGAIN!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 4:20 PM!

oh crap! yes. i didnt go to school! !
whatever lah. i think i shouldnt before i pass this to the whole world.
and getting even sick(er)

yea. i just woke up. going to get my MC from the aunty serene later.
for now i'm planning to start studying at 8 sharp.
stop at 9.
eat my darling breakfast. then pray till 9.30
then i'll continue studying. until as long as i can.
have lunch.
and study a bit more.
after that. i'll sleep!!!! cos my i'll definietly be sleepy afterall the pills.
yewl. oh shutup me.

i feeel quite gazed now.
haha. i'm flying!
yay!
in wonderland.
my heads quite heavy also.
looking at this square screen makes me even more sleepy.
and sick.
that's about it.

i'll blog again later.
when i've accomplished something.
ohh! times up! it's 8 am now.
thats all babes.

today i'm freaking missing;
CHINESE!
MATH!
BIOLOGY!
GEOG!
ACCOUNTS!

shall practice some a math crap now.
i'm sucking at it still.
i cant wait till the day i say that a math is fine.
alright till then.
bye.
takecare dearies.

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 7:57 AM!

Monday, October 04, 2004

oh yea. if you realise my links are gone.
just open your eyes a lil bigger.
haha. see the word links? its there. check it out man!
=)
ahah! i just shifted everything there.
please do sign my guestbook. in my web

oh wells, today passed relatively fast. without myself realising it's evening. shit it.
yay! i'm just so relieved that my blogs working.
had like 4 free periods today! stupid mr chan took over eng. or it'll have been six!
shit it! sucks to bits.

had lunch after school. fishball soup with vegs. and a watermelon!
thats the kind of food you eat when you're sick like me.
i am on the verge of loosing my voice.
is it damn selfish and mean of me to go to school??? when i'm sick?!
i cant help it. this part of the year is the most crucial.
really cant afford to miss any lessons.
sorry those darlings that caught my flu.
god's always on our side.
XD
oh gees, in like 37 hours time, we'll be sitting for our SS paper. sounds bad doesnt it?
37 hours! and what have i done? nothing! and what can i do? nothing also.
i gotta put aside lets say. 6 hours of sleeping today. so that leaves me with 31 hours.
and lets say...... 8 hours of sleep before the paper itself. so that means. erm. i'm left with 22 hours! thats less than a bloody day!
and if you count school! ~ 7 hours.
so now left with 15 hours!
and eating? transport? whatever knots.
basically to make it simple. counting bathing time. and all that. 10 hours
10 damn hours!
let see what can a genius like me do in 10 hours? nothing much
oh bull!
okay. shall stop that now.
had a math anyway, with mr ganesan!
binomial theorem. I HATE BINOMIAL THEOREM! tell me. tell me what do i like?
i dunno! it's so damn tedious. and rubbish! there goes my marks.
shant talk abt it. was snifffing away the whole of today.
i m so sick of being sick!
like why now? its so unfair!
i have like a limited time to do my paper.
and i cant afford wasting seconds or even minutes blowing my nose a zillion times during the paper.
oh god. please make me well by wednesday.
i'm abstaining from all those fried food.
but my voice seems to be going. and at the same time. my nose seems to be dropping.
ahhh! mon and i went to the toilet just to get tissue paper. what a joke.
+D

oh wells, lifes not at its peak now.
i'm feeling rather drousy after all the medicine.
and i feel like i wanna puke all my food.
i dont feel like studying.
i feel so tired.
okokay melissa koh hui ping! wake up!
i shant let my feelings control me.
all the feel like sleeping! dont feel like doing this and that.
i shall be the controller of myself.
there i go.

the MAYS:
may the boreds unite.
may the muggers live forever.
may god reign.

gdbye folks. =D

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 5:43 PM!

Sunday, October 03, 2004

i'm going crazy. cos i can blog! like finally.
oh wells. here's something!

Substance

We The People Hear The Words
That You Are Saying
The Darkness In Our Hearts Remains
We Can Only Live So Long Without The Truth
And The Message You Portray Leaves Me Empty
We Have The Will To Fight
We Just Dont Know Whats Right
Our Hearts Are Crying Out
For Substance To Hold To
Can't You See That We Are Crying
While You're Screaming Our Hearts Are Dying
Shut Your Eyes Shut Your Eyes
Bliss From The Unknown, Hurt We Bear

I Want You To Know What I'm Going Through
We Have The Will To Fight
We Just Don't Know What's Right

i have no idea what song this is. but i guess it's a nice one. kev kor sent me the lyrics yesterday. =D i like it! haha. oh wells, to all darlings mugging hard out there. i love you a lot! my dreams, hopes and well wishes goes out to you!!! take care of yourselves and know that even when nothing seems right for you, God will always be there. so put your trust in him.
During mass today. father adrain yeo talked about faith.
i interpret it as trust. and in fact. i have lost all my hope, everything. english exams over. yes. everythigns over. but i'm just studying so hard for the rest. just cos everyone is. i'm just being bloody competetive. theres seriously no point. i dunno wad i am doing. i dunno why i m studying this hard for? when i already know that english has taken away everything... all my hope for the other papers. oh wells. i'm finding it hard to have faith in it when i can already predict the obvious outcome! i guess i shall leave now!

this goes out to you (cos i love you so damn much!)
cass, adel, leighanne, mon, trish, ongy, feline, claire, nicole, toh, and the rest of 3/8!

melissa koh hui ping with a beautiful smile at 11:19 PM!

be a nerd year